The Never Ending Story

Assalamualaikum. Alhamdulillah, it`s all wrapped up. Finals dah habis last 10th May, and yesterday I have just done my MUET`s Speaking Test. It was quite okay, overall…
Hati agak lega sebab finals dah abis, so beban pun ringan sikit. But, tak lega sangat sebab kebanyakan paper sem ni agak berat, walaupun ramai yang cakap sem ni paling senang, but for me it`s still the hardest. Sorry, we`re not in the same jet plane. Aku bukan jenis they all yang otak purely accounting…
Almost all paper aku screwed up. I don`t know why, every single paper that I sat for, rasa cam cepat sangat stuck and blank. Can`t be denied, kepergian Pak Cik, gives me a massive impact, though. I`ve tried to chill myself up, but it only happens outer. My inner strength has all gone. Tak perlu ada sapa pun yang tau. To all my friends, I apology for couldn`t be myself lately. Dalam hati ni agak risau dengan result final nanti. Kalau pass, Alhamdulillah… kalau sebaliknya, nak buat macam mana, terpaksalah terima. Like it or not. Sakit, memang confirm sakit, sebab terpaksa kecewakan harapan banyak pihak especially my parents, family, and my teachers. I don`t wanna be the one to be blamed, or the hopeless. I`m not a brat. Tak sanggup nak tgk people who love me, living in frustration… it might be a really sad situation. I really hope that it won`t happen… Amin…
Apa-apa pun yang terjadi lepas ni, life must goes on, and I have to face everything to comes. Like my former English Lecturer, Mr. Ahmad Bakhtiar used to say, “ If you are a man, raise up your head, and face the problems.” It really burns me up…
Ahad ni, start lah short sem aku. Class akaun. Tak tau la apa yang akan jadi lepas ni. For this sem, I feel really exhausted and tired being chased by all kind of things that came and smash on my face. Whatever it is, I have to be strong and look forward for my future,cuz I know it might be the brightest one for me. Amin…
Hope all these bad feelings may end up and fade away. I wanna stay free…