Assalamualaikum. Last week was the toughest for me. I was tested by a lot of unexpected things. Everything went beyond my expectation. It tested my ability of patience, then I felt like I have been slapped with a big smash! Tak sangka, house mates yang konon-kononnya naïve, rupa-rupanya selfish and tak tahu hormat kehidupan sendiri. They hijacked me by moving out suddenly without any talk about it earlier. Siapa yang tak sentap kalau tetiba kena tanggung beban sorang2, right? I tried to maintain my patience as I used to have. And what makes me feel worst, my very own best friend sanggup ikut manusia-manusia yang tak tau rasa tanggungjawab tu jugak. From that minute, I knew who he is, and I realize that I can`t put my trust to anybody else anymore, even they are close to me. Not at all. Sakitnya hati waktu tu, tuhan saja yang tahu. Tapi, nak buat mcm mana lagi, I accept it as a test. May be Tuhan nak uji… so, not to put my moral down, I terpaksa la jugak respect their desperate decision, at least I know how to respect things around me… Tak mcm dorang… And, the clearest things can be seen, they have something unsatisfied about me. But, hell I care??? You got problem with it? Talk about it lah! Nobody can change your attitude if you put yourself that way, man! It`s just you, and you the only one got problem with yourself motivation. I got nothing to do with it… Da! Nak cakap banyak, talk to the hand saje lah ekk~! And one thing, there`s no need a conversation after the decision has been made…! Tak perlu buat meeting to make things clearer konon… Everything has changed! You made it! May be I sound ego and a bit emo, but if you put yourself in my shoes, you`ll feel it… I don`t know where to put my respect to our friendship after this. May be on the floor kot… senang pijak!!! It`s like what they did to me…! But, orang cakap, kalau orang bagi taik, kita kena bagi cheese cake. Nak lagi bagus, cap Secret Recipi… sebab kalau kita bagi taik jugak, kita pun sama teruk cam orang tu… tapi, tu orang je yang kata… I kalau nak bagi kat dorang pun may be cheese cake murahan je kot… nak2 lagi best, yang dah expired…! Lemak!!! Hahaha.. I really feel like I`m a train-wrecked if I do that kind of things… but, whatever it is, I won`t care bout them anymore, at all. Hari ni, hari I, sok-sok hari dorang… What goes around, comes around. I can say nothing. Semoga Allah bagi yang terbaik untuk I and to them as well…
And, for that, I have one song to be dedicated to those who hurt me like @@#$@!
By Duffy, Rain On Your Parade... Study the lyrics yeah, BUDDIES!
